feeling blued
but now unglued
my babe ran fast
thought it would last
severe cuts
through the heart
turned to dust
our world of loving art
photogenic smile
perfect dates
it was good for a while
until caught breaking plates
intoxicating
like a dream half-told
suffocating
now alone and cold
writing all the things in my head
my thoughts are scattered like my room
’cause what we had is now dead
like a flower that could never bloom
i used to say i am strong
i trust myself on bouncing back
still cannot believe that that so long
was really meant to never look back
all my demons are calling me
every damn day and fucking night
so i talk with them negotiably
you know this time i wanna make it right
i collapse
i stand up
i relapse
i will never give up
heavy
my heart is heavy
lonely
this road is lonely
haunted
all i feel is haunted